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25 November 2009 @ 10:09 pm
am slowly getting better.
i went back to the doctor yesterday because i felt so miserable and found out i have quite a sinus infection on top of being sick.
six weeks of steroids to make sure i'm actually better.

alchemy has been accepted at birka!
there will be herbs, jewelry, trim and possibly fabric as i need to lighten my stock.

we are at arisia and wicked with clothing, jewelry, books & ritual items.
genericon too.

we are at yule and chatham these next two weeks.
just jewelery and some odds and ends.

new top hats are in the works!
18 November 2009 @ 10:33 pm
trying to set up a separate life while still living with my husband.
he wants a divorce but refuses to move out.
the games are just so draining.

am battling possible h1n1 now but still must work a fair tomorrow evening due to our cash shortage.
have a birthday party to put on after black friday and andrew is still unemployed.
it is hardly the kiddos fault we are in this bind and they will not suffer for it no matter what i must do.

am confirmed for i-con, arisia, wicked and steampunk.
need more work to pull us through.
waiting on yule, birka and 12th night, genericon & luna con.

am so burned out and lost.
12 September 2009 @ 07:19 pm
there is a potential huge change of team rules.
if you are a member of etsy's pagan team we need you to read the following announcement and weigh in with your opinion.
too many members are not voicing their thoughts.

"It has been tossed around and it kicks up now and then, the idea of having it be mandatory that team members:

1-Have at least on item in the team shop
2- Pay a one time, or annual dues (a small amount less than $5)
***3- Have 'X' number of items in the shop at all times
***my bad- it is NOT team shop (have that on the brain!) this is a members personal shop...sorry for the confusion.

There are a few of us who have been active in discussing these possibilities, but these would be big changes to the workings of the team and it would be unfair to make these changes without the input and support of the majority of the team.

Those of us who have discussed these things are in support of them in some form or fashion but have yet to work out the finer details.
This is not an easy task considering the lack of input from the majority of the team.

If you would like to see how these ideas have come about, you can find the bulk of the information by reading both of the Team Meeting discussions.
This is our discussion from the last meeting and the link to the meeting notes can be found there as well.

We would like to know what you think and how you feel about making these changes, for there will be a change in order to bring this team into a stronger and tighter circle.

So, if you all would please, respond to the items 1-3 above.

For all those who have been active in helping the team, active in sharing your thoughts, those that hang out in chat, etc. Push this discussion- tell your friends, send them messages via ning or etsy, post it on your networks and the team networks if you tend to them.
I will broadcast this to the whole membership- but not all respond to those broadcasts. If you have a friend that has ning troubles, relay their thoughts so that their voice is heard."


Current Location: bed
Current Mood: sicksick
20 August 2009 @ 11:05 pm
andrew and i have been together since 1993.
i loved him so much back then that he replaced the gods of my childhood and became the religion of my womanhood.
of course this was not reciprocal but back then my mother was still alive and i was under the thrall of her negativity. i truly believed no one would ever love me, just tolerate being near me. and here was a man who did not love me but was kind and gentle.
how could i not gravitate to this bright sun?

eventually we settled down together and had a little boy.
by the time of his first birthday we knew we were expecting another child.
and there is where everything fell apart.
my entire world imploded with just one act of darkness.
and that darkness continued for almost five years.
out of it came the twins.
and a different outlook.

i am so lonely in this relationship.
i'm not at ease in my home and hide in corners.
every day brings the mantra "please let him leave".
the absolute loneliness is spirit crushing.
i feel empty and rattling inside.
how is this possible?
the need for sensory stimulation to make believe one is still necessary?
i have become a despicable creature needing to escape and losing all sight of the future.

somehow i know this is slowly killing me.
Current Location: no where
Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Current Music: torn
21 July 2009 @ 04:46 pm
i am in one of the best street teams on etsy.
we are a group of pagans who just happen to be talented artists and creators as well.
our team tag is paganteam for anyone searching for awesome stuff.

funny thing is a few months back i almost bailed on this team cos it was so stagnant.
turns out the team leader did a complete disappearing act-closed her store, no emails etc-on the team.
this meant no one had access to the team store, blog, facebook, live journal or email.
we were a real mess!

now we have howlingcatapillars and dragonsmoon leading us.
there is a set of shopkeepers in case one leaves.
piecebypiecebykat has a great coffee break chat every wednesday at 9 am central.
we can be followed on twitter and facebook, thanks to alsomrsb.
and i give a series of talks in the etsy chat room on tues & thurs evenings at 9 pm est.

i am always surprised and touched when people show up!
i can't imagine what i did to meet such wonderful people.

pagan team is the best on etsy!
Current Location: on the web
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: none, today.
25 June 2009 @ 08:42 pm
When was the last time you stayed up all night? What were you doing?
i stay up all night quite frequently and am usually trying to get at least a nap in before having to get up and face my kiddos.
i am on 2 prescription sleep meds but they often do not work.
free floating anxiety, crashing waves of inspiration and the occational cat fight in the yard make sleeping during normal hours a luxury.

Current Location: sewing table
Current Mood: productive
Current Music: once apon a time in nyc
02 June 2009 @ 06:05 pm
we had a litter of kittens 5 weeks ago.
last week they came downstairs to join the rest of the household.
they are absolutely adorable and so much fun to watch.
they are not much fun to clean up after however.
the little devils are now eating kibble but will not use the litter box.
we have a tiny pan dedicated just to them.
we even put one of Tuna's poopies in it so they could go where mommy's scent was.
i just found where they are hiding it all.
under one of my bookcases.
while cleaning the living room i put my hand under the bookcase to check for old socks, toys and game pieces.
imagine my surprise...
stepping on the half eaten "presents" my older cats leave me was more pleasant.
now the little bastards are sprawled out across the entire sofa taking a nap.
faking innocence.
yes, there is a good reason cats have a bad reputation.
it is well earned.
and i wouldn't change it for anything.

i just saw one take a crap beside the box.
i can't win with these guys!

12 May 2009 @ 12:03 am
The term "copal" was derived from "copalli," a Spanish word meaning incense, which is what copal is used for. Copal ranges in color from pale yellow, orange, red and white.
This resin comes from a family of trees known as Bursera. These are small trees that are related to both frankincense and myrrh. Copal producing trees can be found growing in all of the Americas and is a few million years younger than true amber, but the untrained eye has a hard time telling the difference. Copal is “young amber” & the vast majority is 50 years to 10,000 years old whereas, some amber is up to millions of years old. Columbian copal is usually about 250-10,000 yrs old. Some scientists claim the oldest copal is 33,000 years old from Misunani, Japan. Copal will eventually become Amber as it ages and has a very similar vibration.
It is considered sacred to many peoples of South and Central America, including the Mayans. Mass quantities of copal resin were burned atop the Aztec and Mayan pyramids.

Copal resin incense is burned year round in the churches of Mexico and has been used as an offering to the gods in Central America. Is best known for its use in Mexico in the homes during Day of the
Dead. The familiar scent of copal helps the souls find their way back during their annual visit
home. Maize(corn) is the food of the people, so copal is the food of the gods, they would even so far as to shape the copal into ears of maize.

Copal incense has a clean, light, woody scent similar to pine or turpentine, almost fruity or citrus at times. Some people say it is similar to a very light myrrh scent, or a combination of frankincense and lemon. It is great incense for clearing negative energies and making positive changes. An extremely positive and loving energy, copal can help one to feel more content and peaceful with life, but also can aid in making changes when life is not as wonderful as it could be. To use just sprinkle a few granules onto hot incense charcoal and add your intentions.
Gum copal resin incense is excellent for smudging. If the space is full of negativity, stagnation, or a loved one has been ill, copal can cleanse the space quickly and raise the vibrations at the same time. If one has been feeling stuck in present circumstances, copal can be a true aid in helping to move forward in a positive direction.
Copal unites the energizing force of the Sun with the grounding, transmutative properties of Earth. A powerful yet gentle healer and cleanser, copal draws out and transmutes negative energy of all kinds on all levels. Copal aids in physical self-healing, emotional healing of depression, and environmental clearing.

One of its most unique characteristics is that copal never needs "clearing." Copal opens and cleanses all of the chakras. Highly protective, copal also aids in the manifestation of ideas to reality. The life force trapped within copal promotes fertility, and its protective and environmental clearing properties make it a good stone to use to prepare a healing or birthing room.

Use copal with the solar plexus chakra to increase confidence, mental clarity, and creative self expression. Copal also links to the crown chakra, allowing awareness in during deep meditations.
Copal awakens psychic abilities and boosts the auric body. Copal can remove energy blocks and aligns the physical with the etheric bodies. It increases the awareness of each person's individuality while maintaining a strong connection to humanity as a whole.

Copal is associated with the signs Gemini, Leo and Sagittarius.

Current Location: with a backache
Current Mood: hothot
Current Music: rock me gently
here is info that a dear friend, cathy kane, sent me:

THE AGE OF AQUARIUS is here!!! !!!!!!!!! !
(Saturday 14th February 2009 @ 7:25am GMT)

When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius
The Age of Aquarius
Aquarius! Aquarius!
Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derision's
Golden living, dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the mind's true liberation
Aquarius! Aquarius!
When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius

This year the exact alignment spoken of nearly 40 years ago will occur with the end of a Piscean influenced society, reflected through the American government of the past, and the old financial institutions. The old regime has been driven from power by the unification of a single, collective, awakened voice. The new Aquarian era has begun in the United States of America and is being extended through a hand of partnership to the world to join in unison.

The alignment of Mars and Jupiter, with the Moon in the 7th house occurs as Jupiter, Mars, Neptune, and Chiron the Wounded Healer, the Sun and the North Node all align in Aquarius. To make this even more significant it occurs on February 14, 2009, Valentines Day, at 7:25am (GMT). For those of us on the Pacific Coast, that is 11:20pm the night before (February 13th). On the East Coast 2:20am on the 14th and those
in Switzerland and Germany 8:20am on the 14th.

The Seventh House is commonly referred to as the House of Partnership. Within this House, we see a shift away from the self toward another - a partner.

In cooperating and relating to others we unite for the purpose of achieving something grand. Purpose is important to the Seventh House the act of accomplishing something great. In uniting with others, we become a more valuable member of our world: we make a contribution, one small cog in the wheel of life. We have purpose. Cooperation and partnership help to expedite our purpose in life.

We are on the cusp, leaving the Age of Pisces and moving forward into the Age of Aquarius fully. The alignment of Jupiter with Mars has occurred twice already once in 1973 and again in 1998. Reflect on what
was occurring in your life at this time as it has a significant message for your journey forward. Open your heart and visualize the emerald green and magenta ray of light coming together to restore balance.

The Age of Aquarius is symbolic of a great spiritual transformation, a new sense of democracy, freedom and humanitarianism. The end of religious separation and the return of the first religion, earth religion and a deep spiritual connection to one another. This transitional period between two ages is considered to be a process that occurs over many years, not on an exact day or year.

The alignment will last for approximately 18 minutes so make a commitment to join with people from all over the world at this time and pray that our leaders of all nations are guided by love and peace and we as citizens of the world come together to support the changes of this new era. Be the change you dream about. Join together with the world this night and pray for unification and healing. It starts with us.

The Dawning of the Age of Aquarius: A Rare Astrological Concentration The most profound spiritual traditions of ancient times perceived the manifest world, at all scales of existence as being generated and
pervaded by a cosmic trinity of active, passive and neutral principles - the divine essence of the masculine, feminine and child. The Vedic sages of ancient India saw the male/active life-force energy they called the pingala and the female/passive energy they called the ida weaving around and through our chakras and the child/neutral energy they called the shushumna as channeling up through them.

When these divine masculine and feminine energies are balanced and so able to fully `birth' the divine child energies within us, the ancient sages saw the so-called kundalini energy that otherwise lies dormant at the base of the spine, surge through us enabling us to fully embody our divine nature.

The purpose of the sacred marriage between the divine feminine and masculine that the ancient peoples, such as those of Malta, enacted in their temples was thus not only to bring cosmic harmony and fertility to their land but within themselves. For such balance enables the energetic activation or `birth' of the divine child within us and the attainment of enlightenment.

When this cosmic trinity of consciousness is harmonized and fully expressed within us, we are truly `healed' and `whole' as embodied by the universal symbol of the caduceus as a representation of healing from earliest times.

For millennia, only the highest adepts understood and have attained such wholeness. But elders and mystics around the world are saying that now is the time, when we have evolved to a point where we are all able to awaken our inner divinity.

This is our spiritual destiny at the dawning of the Age of Aquarius.

In mid February, we are offered cosmic support to this re-membering of who we really are, by a rare astrological concentration that brings together a number of planets together with the North Node - denoting
higher purpose - in Aquarius. And which energizes and inspires the possibility for transcendental breakthrough and healing.

We measure our global sense of both space (longitude) and time (universal time - UT or GMT) from the prime meridian located at Greenwich, England. We can perceive the collective influence of this momentous astrological event by looking at the alignment from this globally `centered' perspective. When we do, something extraordinary and exquisite emerges.

At dawn on 14th February the day dedicated to St Valentine, the patron saint of Love, the Moon in Libra enters the seventh house of relationships. And Jupiter and Mars are aligned in Aquarius in the twelfth house of spiritual transformation.

Forty years ago, the intuitive words of a song called Aquarius, brought the dawning of the new age into our collective awareness:

When the Moon is in the seventh house
And Jupiter aligns with Mars.
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars.

At dawn on 14th February the Cosmos actually embodies this perfect alignment to support our collective manifestation of love and peace and the dawning of the Age of Aquarius.

The Aquarian chart of 14th February reveals an incredible concentration of cosmic influences blending with the energies of Aquarius in the twelfth house. Expansive Jupiter and energetic Mars are aligned with the higher purpose of the North Node. The presence of Chiron the wounded healer offers us the opportunity to heal the schisms that have separated us for so long. Neptune emphasizes collective humanitarian movements and the co-creation of social justice. And the presence of the radiant Sun enlightens the entire alignment.

Mercury also in the twelfth house but just beyond the cusp in Capricorn, allies with transformational Pluto to communicate and anchor the Shift throughout our global structures and institutions.

The Moon in Libra in the seventh house emphasizes harmonious real-ationships.

Venus in Aries in the first house energizes and empowers dynamic co-creativity.

And whilst Saturn the great task master in opposition to Uranus the unexpected awakener is suggesting an ongoing confrontation as the dregs of the unsustainable old paradigm reluctantly give way to the untested hope of the new, their placements in Virgo and Pisces brings practical altruism and visionary inspiration to the transition.

Alignment view from the horizon

At 7.25am on 14th February - and for the 18 minutes of the alignment, we invite you, in the universal heart, to add your own intention for love and peace and to co-create the dawning of the Age of Aquarius to that of the Cosmos. In whatever way feels appropriate for you, you may choose to align with7.25am (UT) or 7.25am your own local time energizing a wave of intention that will surge around the Earth.

Having searched for over a thousand years, I can find no other alignments in the past of this incredible significance. But amazingly, at one moment in time nearly fifty years ago, the collective voices of our ancient ancestors seem to have been given such a cosmic voice to energetically seed this coming Age and the birth of the Aquarian human.

In 1962 at the same time on the same day, as 2009, Jupiter and Mars were in Aquarius in the twelfth house and the Moon in the seventh house. But then the awesome concentration of planets that energize the 2009 alignment was missing.

And instead of the North Node (higher purpose) being aligned with Jupiter and Mars as it is in 2009, it was in opposition.
What this means is that back in 1962 it was the so-called south node rather than the north node that was aligned with Jupiter and Mars.

The south node represents what we bring in from the past. So in 1962 the potential for us the birth the Age of Aquarius came through from our collective race memory - but only now are we able to fully manifest its higher purpose. In 1962 we essentially took a collective in-breath of possibility and now with the cosmic support of the Aquarian alignment of 14th February 2009 we are able to take the out-breath and make it happen.


well folks, the universe has done its part.
the rest is up to us.
Current Location: by the tv
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: banana phone
04 May 2009 @ 01:16 pm
we vended at the hudson valley mayfaire this weekend.
it was cool and windy on saturday and cool and rainy on sunday.
this was basically opening day for the ren fair season.
the weather was not surprising for the first weekend in may, but rain is always the death knell for an event.
people will come out in 100 degree heat, freezing temps but rain turns them off.

i really can't complain.
we made over 800$ and even had a free night in a hotel.
curley had a wonderful time going to the magic shows and watching the belly dancers.

i met some beautiful people and hope to vend beside them again.
i took a fall by the restrooms and my already fragile left ankle swelled so badly that even the bottom of my foot is swollen!
the disturbing part is no one asked if i was okay or helped me up.
there were many people who saw me fall and just stared.
i have never experienced such disenfranchisement before.

we will be adding this event to our roster from now on.
and hope for better weather!
Current Location: on the sofa
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: none